I have traveled a long way to meet you here. No matter where you are I celebrate this divine moment of pure life with you. I am sharing with you from deep within my heart and spirit. No matter what you are looking for there is hope.
I came to this world during the Cultural Revolution in China. The nine months when my mother was pregnant with me was the most difficult time in her life that was filled with physical, emotional and mental tortures.
My mother named me “the Rising Sun at Dawn”, the sun that disperses all darkness and brings new hope and light to the world. Before I could rise up and shine like a Sun I must first find my inner light, which became my life’s journey.
When I was six months old my parents were sent to the remote country where we lived for five years. It was the poorest country that blessed me with the richest childhood experiences. My mother nurtured me with unconditional love and so did Mother Earth. I was one with my mother, the earth, the mountains and everything in nature.
My mother passed away when I was 19. My whole world collapsed. I lost my love for life. Nothing seemed to bear any meaning any more. Life was but a salty river of endless pain and sufferings.
Chanting and reading Buddhist Scriptures was the only way that could provide me some comfort and temporary escape from the painful realities. I wanted to be out of the reincarnation cycles and end all sufferings. Yet it was said that it would take eons of lifetimes. I wandered through life like a zombie, but knew that I would not commit suicide.
Drifting through life in hopelessness I married my only boyfriend from college, not for love or passion but for security and obligations. I remained lifeless until my son was born. Giving birth and nurturing this new life awakened the dormant life within me.
Suddenly I realized how unhappy I had been and desired to become alive again. That’s when Jerry came into my life. The sparkling light in his eyes opened up my heart like never before. I tried all my will to shut down the newly opened doorway of my heart but would not be able to remain lifeless anymore. I knew that I had to follow my heart.
My life changed its direction before the turn of the millennium. I left China and flew to America to marry my dream husband Jerry. Hadn’t found my true self yet I soon found myself falling down from my dreamed paradise onto a roller coaster of frustration, conflict, anger, fight, guilt, loneliness, shame, despair, and depression.
I worked hard and earned an MBA degree but life felt like a prison. At the darkest night of my soul I heard my heart crying out loud that I wanted to be free! I resigned from a well-paid corporate job and put all my efforts into building a business hoping it would bring me freedom. Three years later I hit a wall. Not knowing where to go I hired a life coach who asked me to get back to nature.
One day I was walking along the mountain creek with my son and our dog. The blue mountain, the running creek, the fresh air, and the curved country road all blended together in simple beauty. My son passed me on his bicycle. As I watched him riding away in simple joy the world suddenly stopped spinning, and I stopped in the middle of the road.
In that split moment I realized that I already had what I needed and there was nothing else to chase for externally. That was the turning point of my life’s journey. I started to look within myself for the meaning of life.
In April 2010 Jerry was suddenly diagnosed with leukemia and passed away five months later. He told me in tears days before he died that love was the most important thing in life, and if he were given a second chance he would show me in every possible way. I didn’t understand what he really meant until after he died. It was a gift given through his life and death.
Through many tears of deep grieving I realized that in spite of all the challenges, sufferings and conflict love had always been there. Love was everything. My heart was filled with deep gratitude for this profound realization.
I awakened to my inner sun that nurtured and guided me along the journey of finding my true self. I met renowned teacher Jeddah Mali who helped to awaken the inner consciousness within me. Through an intense one-year training program with Jeddah I became a certified Meditation Facilitator. After that I became a RoHun Doctor after two years of deep healing and diving into the subconscious and unconscious mind.
When the student is ready the teacher shows up. Through serendipity and divine timing along my journey of discovering the true self I was blessed to meet the ultimate true Master, the most benevolent Avatar of Life. I was awakened to the Master within myself. My Master taught me through living examples how to be in service of pure life. I was thoroughly trained in Direct Hypnosis and greatly expanded my capacity to serve others.
It has been a journey of finding my true self through transformations from guilt to compassion, shame to grace, doubt to trust, depression to joy, fear to love, and conflict to peace and harmony. In deepest gratitude and humility I have grown into my own Master from a timid little girl who had to hide from the world.
It has been a grand journey of continuous personal ascension. Finally I realized that I am a Pure Being of my own Spirit and I am that path of life that I was looking for. I can rise up like a star because I am a star of pure life.
I’ve been through hell and darkness to find and shine my inner light. I feel deeply blessed and honored to be able to hold that light up for those who are searching for their own truth. No matter what you’ve been through and what you desire to achieve there is hope and there is a way, the way of true pure life.
Thank you for meeting me here. There is luminous beauty within your life. There is brilliant intelligence within your spirit. It’ll be my honor to walk this path of discovering true life with you. Infinite blessings of life’s pure peace and grace!